Three Single Girls

Why do we lie?

Why do you lie?

Why do I lie?

To avoid getting into trouble? To avoid a conflict? To protect? To pretend that it is the truth…

For months and months a certain someone has been on my mind. For many years he has been my one. The one i dream of. We could never.be at the same place at the same time in life. But i always always believed we would find our way to each other. The last time we spoke he was ill and was having medical issues. We lost contact but dispite using all my resources i was unable to track him down. I have been so concerned that he had passed and i didnt know. I franticly searched for his sister on fb and finally got a reply from her. She added me which gave me a little insist to the situation… Thankfully my ‘soul mate’ had not passed on but simply moved on. I am relieved to know he is alive but as relief slips away my heart shatters and my stomach heaves and a great sadness comes over me. Is this love ever really meant to be…and why why why dont i just let this love go and move on?

Charlie…. In it alone?

I guess it only makes sense that those of us who are still single around 30 something + are all kinds of fuked up. But really does it have to so bad?

I like to visit crazy every once in a while but i don t want to live there.

Came to the conclusion tonight (after breaking it off with crazy) that when someone relys on someone else for happiness and then that person rejects them they lash out because they can not accept rejection for its simpliest explaination. We are not compatible. It is not personal. This is not me hating on you this is me being honest with myself and you. Not everyone is meant to be together. In fact it is more likely not. Does not mean you are not good people. Just not good for me. Take it as a blessing and move forward! Do not txt me a hundred thousand times telling me all my “flaws” and how messed up I am, how it is all my fault and im a liar or whatever bs you can come up with at a feeble attempt to bring me down and raise yourself up. Say ok. Take care. Then walk away with grace and dignity.

Charlie

looking for inner peace and practicing patience

“Call me STUPID then Im suppose to come over and jump on your dick!”